Spend 2 hours at the Emergency ward

Still suffering from the complications from my pneumonia, sinusitis and the beginning of an ear infection I had to go on even more medicine, and the day before yesterday my fingers felt fumbling and my arms heavy and my eyes a bit wierd, so yesterday I visited the doctor. He thought it was because of the cortisone I used but to still continue with the antibiotics, so I did.

Today at lunch I got a heavy pain in my heart-area (you know, where my cold, black stone is) and it spread up to my throat and then up to the right side of the face, making it feel a bit numb and strange. My lips was numb too. I had to land my ass in the sofa a while. The pain in my chest continued over a couple of minutes and after a while my sight went a bit odd. I felt like the eyes was a bit slow. It really scared me.
I called the ER and they wanted me to take an ECG, so I went.

The tests didn't show anything, and after 2 hours I told them I wanted to go home, so I had to sign myself out. I have better things to do then hang in the ER all night long..
I feel better now, but I still feel there is something strange going on with my fingers and arms, but as long as it doesn't kill me I don't care. I think it might be a reaction to the medicine, but I'm not sure, and I still have 3 more days left of it...
Of course I've landed a massive castric catarrh after all my time of strong medicine, so now I feel hungry ALL the time - even when I'm eating... I'm totally overeating and will start the year having to loose weight. That sucks!

"Our" song

I got  a question about if me and my husband share a first-night-song.
And yes, we do! It's not our style in music at all.
We were at an electro disco (never seen eachother before), and was waiting and waiting for a slow dance.
This one came on and we both turned, looked at eachother, reached out and just fell into eachothers arms <3 Not a word was spoken! Kind of strange, considering now I can't shut up. I'm guessing he's longing for those quiet minutes again *haha*
The first song we ever danced to was:

Made chocolate for tonight

I made a milk chocolate truffle with whiskey, covered it in dark chocolate and used chocolate decour paper on it. Turned out very nice :)
The other I made was a dark espresso truffle covered in milk chocolate and with some cacao on top.
They are both sooooo goooood. I shouldn't have tried two of them before bedtime yesterday though...I'm no coffee drinker so I had trouble falling asleep.

The white one is a clean white truffle with lime, rolled in icing sugar. Sometime I have lime, sometimes oranges. Drooool.

I always think that IF you are going to eat candy - make it yourself, then at least you will get rid of all of those extra products that is no good for you..

Better candy makes better bodys <3

22 years in love

The 5'th of January 1989 (22 years ago) I fell in love, and I'm still falling...<3

I met my husband for the very first time ever and we both fell madly in love. This is the first picture of us together from that magically night.

I can sure tell the 80's was no good era for my hair ;) Back then it was pure misery all over. I was blonde at first, but a few weeks before this picture I was a hair-model and the bastards colored me in an awful carrot color. The day before this picture I just grabbed a pair of scissors and cut my hair a bit here and there. Well, I can't hate it really, since it helped me nail the prettiest boy alive <3

I love you for being so pretty

(he's nice too, but I only care for looks)

See what a big smile he put's on my face everytime he's near <3



Knees are in

Apparently after watching fashion shows the next "it" thing is knees.
And I can just say I'd LOVE these überpretty pantyhoses with a different pattern over the knee.

I'm often very cold on my knees, so instead of wearing leg-warmers, I usually cut off pieces from old lace stockings, add some lace-ribbon to the cut of ends and pull over my knees for extra heat. It gives the same expression, kind of...
There must be a hidden camera in here for the fashion designers..?
I must be a shear genious!

Goth keyboard

This must be on every goths wishlist!
I already have a clear keyboard with neon blue light in it, but if I didn't....

Can read a bit more here.

Happy New Year!

Earlier on New Years Eve we celebrated a bit at home with the kids.

Here drinking "Champagne" with a strawberry and eating some canapés

Dinner: Mushroom soup in a Schnappsglass, fillet of beef, roasted root crops, rocket salad and feta cheese in créme fraiche. I did good!

Then we went to our friends house for the party

And finally, today - after 4 years as an Australian, blond surfer boy (yes, I have teased him every single day) my husband changed back to black hair. He's sooooo hot right now <3

I made us vanilla panna cotta with strawberry consommé and rasped chocolate for dessert

TeeBee found a heart shaped crisp and gave me

but of course I doubled-dipped and dropped it on my skirt..

I wish you all a wonderful, fantastic, happy, eventful and  gorgeous New Year.

May this be your best year ever and may all your dreams come true <3

Happy New Year!!!

Christmas for the 3'd time

I forgot to update on the Christmas we celebrated at my dad's and his wifes house on Christmas Day. Have to add that later.
But today we celebrated Christmas for the 3'd time. Today with my mother and her husband at our flat.

This was the look of today
Dress: £10 at a London market, spangle tights: H&M, skull-socks: Lindex, shoes: Swedish e-bay

Cheesecake with milk chocolate ganache, strawberries and lightly whipped cream was what I served

Todays Christmas presents:

See my two cute gnomes and the new antique straw goat I bought

Synthia read on all the packages

And no, it's not one of my kitties to the right, it's my stuffed fox Marian Gold. I love her, she's so cute. I got her from Synthias school at a sale (crazy cheap). I thought she would have it better in my home where she can be loved than in some hunters cottage.

Thank's for at sweet 3'd Christmas. And what did I get? Money and sweet luxorious chocolate truffles.

I'm enjoying them now :P

Eyes of today

Feeling the New Year approaching I did some fireworks inspired make up today :)

I had on lots of silver as well as lilac hologram glitter, but it didn't come out well on camera :(
Haha, gotta love that still picture...time for sleep, Adora?

Back to Doctor Bart

After I danced around the Christmas tree on Christmas eve and breathed like a 94 year old woman who just did 101 jumping jack's afterwards I had to realise it was time to lumber back to the doctors office...

Doctor Bart listened to my lungs today, then looked me in the eyes saying "-This doesn't look good. You have a whole orchestra playing in there."

This is the mental picture I goth

He could hear whisling, squeaking, rattling, crackle and pop, he said.

10 antibiotics at once, then 9/day as well as 2 gigantic cortisone pills every day AND cortisone nasal spray 2 times/day.

All of this because I have a double-sided pneumonia, sinusitis-problems and an otitis on it's way (the doctor who did the rinsing managed to put up some water behing my eardrum, and now, after being deaf on that ear since then, it's about to turn into an otitis.)

And of course on top of it all this the bi-effects on all these medicines is swollen face. I can just give my best eyeliner to the fact that I soon will look like a moon-girl in the face!

And yeah...we all know what else below-the-waist-problem comes out of a heavy antibiotics cure...

If only I could bake bread out of it...

Shabby chic people scares me!

The swedish variant of Shabby chic is more white, white and bit of zinc then the american flower, romantic way. But please, you must know when enough is enough!
I stumbled over this picture at http://romantiskahem.blogspot.com/
I couldn't believe it - but real persons lives here! It looks like an over decorated shop, not a home..

Don't the men look like they suffer?

I can understand a girl wants to live like this, it is kind of cute (I'm VERY embarassed to actually like it - moderately!) - but can you imagine a man living in this wedding cake home?! Wait - it gets worse:

He's supposed to fuck in this! Can't be easy to be real macho when your making love in grandma's bedroom?

and of course there can be no empty places, everywhere it must be garish..

and here's the dinner table

Okay, so she's very good at creating this shabby chic (/"grandma-on-cocaine-balls-style") to her house. I like to visit peoples houses that look like this - but at the same time I can't help myself from laughing.

It's ridiculus having a man to live in this ruche brash!

I'm very ambivalent to this style...I like it, but still I think it's sick.

My home is also all white. Everything but the floor in the living room (parquet) and my bedroom (antique oak) is. I'd like the floor in the living room to be white too, but my husband's got enough by putting white floors in the kids rooms. But I still work him... I want my L.R. to look like a studio, sort of..

I have no special decoratin style, I like many, but I don't like color, it makes my mind twirly. Not too much stuff to be seen (that is extremely difficult when you live 5 persons in a 5-room flat). And yes - I admit to having certain areas in the shabby-style - from time to time - not all the time, all over the place.

My favorite room of all times was our bedroom in the last flat (before all the kids). It looked a bit like a catholic bedroom. Perfect to be nasty in ;) Sorry about the ugly bedside rug - but it was a fun thing we had going from a Turkey-vacation earlier..

Berlin 2006

Here I am ready to go and visit our friend Eskil of the band Covenant who invited us in since we were in town. He lived in Berlin at this time. I love his voice and their music.

My husband actually arranged their first gig as the band Covenant, AND invited in the record company that signed them back then. Good job, honey, you made the world a better place!

One thing - I HATE BERLIN!

Not to start a 3'd world war or something, but we went there in January 2006 - and it was the coldest week in our lives!! I have NEVER been that cold - not even now when Sweden is having like 10-20 degrees below Celsius. Always when we complain it's cold, we always says:

 "- but it's not Berlin-cold."

I can't belive how cold it was - we literally had on all the clothes we packed, at the same time, but still we almost freeze to death.

This was the theme song of our trip.

Sorry, Berlin. I'll try visit you in the summer and give you a second chance.

Making cocain-balls

Feeling creative, so I made cocain-balls for New Year's Eve. I usually call them Angel Marbles, but the ones I rolled in icing sugar sure made me think different...and I like to get a good laugh, so that was a better name :)

Warning!!! Never try anyone elses cocain-balls! You should never do drugs, but you can make jokes about it.

I lead evening courses in Chocolate truffle making sometimes, and this one is always made the first lesson since it's so easy and taste sooooo good. It's more of a candy than a truffle though..

Cocain-balls/Angel marbles

200 grams white chocolate

40 g cream

1½ tablespoon of room temperature, unsalted, real butter

6 tablespoons of shredded coconut

juice of half a lime

Roll in:

icing sugar or pearl sugar

Chop the chocolate and melt in a water-bath.

Heat the cream until it simmers, add the butter. Stir this into the chocolate and add the shredded coconut.

Pour in the lime juice. Stir and then pour to a plate and let clot in the refrigerator about 10-30 minutes.

Rasp out with a spoon and roll (quickly! It melts) to a small ball. Roll it in icing sugar or pearl sugar.

Store in the refrigerator, but serve at room temperature.

*To get colored pearl sugar: Add a few drops of caramel colour to the pearls and rub with your fingers.

I also made milk-chocolate ganache with rum, and dark chocolate ganache with coffee. It will set at room temperature until tomorrow, then I'll make them into truffles.



Pretty umbrella...ending with dead people

It's time to start thinking about the summer and the M'era Luna festival in Germany. I'm a big fan of DIY and this supersweet umbrella made me think perhaps I should style my own umbrella next year?

Of course I'm no fan of this vintage, shabby chic style umbrella (well, yes, embarassing enough I am, but I would never tell, not even under torture!), but I see everything in black inside my head, and in black this will be wonderful and so pretty I must poke out my eyes because it hurts too much looking at it. And all around me people will start taking suicide because they want an umbrella just like it and when they understand they can never have it they must die....well, that's just how my mind wanders away sometimes...

I just love my homemade movies my brain presents to me every day. I wish you could all sit down and watch the magic going on in there....

Todays outfit

Today we were out on town to do one of the traditions we have for the kids.
Every year they get to choose one Christmas ornament. So when they leave home in their 40's *hahaha* they will have ornaments that they hopefully have memories around to put in their own tree.

Yes, I had a jacket on too

These are the ornaments they choose

Fairlight took the cute polar bear, Synthia the glitter snowflake and TeeBee the hysterically funny pig! I think he will laugh his socks off when he's older and is going to hang that one in his tree! I will tease him about that one for ever!

My Christmas eve

Since half of Sweden was snowbound we changed location and celebrated Christmas at my husbands mum and dad instead. It was very funny, they are always so sweet.

This was the look of the day. I had red earrings at least!

Sweet Synthia was so happy

And here's pretty Goldilocks, aka Fairlight

And my cute TeeBee turned into a knight in shining armour.

See he's got Darth Vader on his shirt? The only way he agreed on wearing a shirt on Christmas eve was if I sew Darth to it.
The things we do to keep our kids stylish ;)

Is Santa coming?

Merry Christmas!

I hope you all have a wonderful, happy Christmas filled with love <3

I'm so happy we managed to get home in the snowstorm. And thank's Santa for making the evening magic for our wonderful children. Now they will be good for another year ;)

Lots of  Love from me to You, pretties

and....yeah, I'm still sick (in the head/lungs/back? Take a pick)

Change of plans

At 14:00 I went out into the snowstorm, and at 18:46 I got back. I had like 12 bags of Christmas presents in my hands.

On my way out

I'm just looking at the weather forecast and we have a class 2 warning from our town to my mother. She lives 1½ hour away and sadly I must realize there will be no celebrating with my mother, her husband, my uncle (who calles us the Addams Family) and his family as well as my grandfather Harry tomorrow :(

 We will celebrate the entire day at my parents in law instead, who lives much closer. We were about to celebrate the evening with them, but now they will have us for guests all day.
That means I had to go out to buy some extra food for the Christmas dinner just now. I'm SO tired...

Oh, well - time to sip some mulled wine and crush a gingerbread heart between my fangs before I hit that pile of unwrapped gifts. Then I will most surely drop dead and won't rise again until tomorrow.

I hope you all have a wonderful Christmas time filled with love, reasonable drinking and fantastic company. Sing a song with your old grandma or something, or make her tell you a lifestory about how she meet your grandpa. Those storys always makes me so happy. Lots of love for everyone. For those that hate Christmas (sadly many do); try to focus on the good things. If you like talking to your cousin then only think about that as the fun thing. Bad things is not worth a second of your time, you only deserve happiness; that's my wish for you <3

Love,
A

Making meatballs

I just made 45 meatballs for the Christmas dinner. If I don't do them my mother will BUY meatballs *shivers*. I have never in my life bought ready-made meatballs and will NEVER do. Disgusting!

I'm also enjoying the view from my window. It's a beautiful winters day with 11 degrees below Celsius, and I'm quite happy to be inside.

I'm doing some goth crafting today. Can't reveal anything because it's Christmas gifts. Sorry..



Crafting in the house

At Christmas every year I force my kids to do some crafts. The thing with making crafts with kids is you want them to make things you actually want to show. I think I did good this year. They made some fantastic things, and I love having them shown in our home.

Here's their wonderful angel candle holders

• Buy cheap candle holders at IKEA
• Paint them with glue
• Put on a sweet angel bookmark
• Quickly roll it in sugar (here you can blow-dry to faster get to the next step)
• Paint the upper edge with glue and dip it in silver/gold glitter
• Put in a tea light and light it - enjoy <3

I also had them make some cute mittens to hang in the tree.

• Cut a nicely patterned felt into two mittens
• Sew them together with easy stitches
• Glue on a crochet lace
• Thread a red ribbon through it and tie
• Hang it in you tree/nose/whatever

I think they are just supercute <3 My kids got lots of compliments from the proud mum. Aww, they did good. Now they are craft-free until Valentine's Day ;)