All yesterdays partys

This Friday I went to Club Bluescreen to see my sisters boyfriends band - D-ToX play. They were great! They sure was my favorite band of the evening - both easy on the ears as well as easy on the eyes :)

Doing my hair at Wallan's house

Getting arrested by the Wallan-police as I hug Pelle from band Avant Garde

Even got my "secret" husband on a picture. I think he is so pretty <3

My pretty sister Jenny was there too

and Mårten + gf

and friend Stefan

 Watching sisters bf's band D-ToX play

Here's their video by the way. Enjoy!

Getting my hair pretty

I should really need to bleach my hair right now - but it kills the hair to do it too often, and my hair can't take it. I always tries to wait as long as I can. When the outgrowth is getting too long I hide it wearing a small coif, big bows or else. Right now I think I will hang on until Lucia or something, so I look nice during Christmas and New Years Eve at least.

Strange pick up lines I've got

Two of the favourites are:
"I whish I was the water in your shower caressing your body"
"Your clothes look fantastic....on my floor tonight..."

Yeah, I know we have all heard them before, but I still think it's cute to get them, when it's genuine :)
Thank's boys <3

But - HEY - It's Friday if anyone missed it!
I feel like crazy every Friday! No, it's not my current look, but it sure looks crazy!

Hair

I'm having hair-panic, as usual.
I love my hair long and flat, I think it looks a bit more "model" and proper on me.

But at the same time - big hair is always so cool and makes me look more like a cartoon (like I want to look like). What people don't understand is that when you have long hair back-combing takes FOREVER straitening out! That's why I don't do it that often. It huuuuuurts! But dreads is an easy way to be fluffy and not having the pain.
These pictures are from 2003.

Thank you all

I'd like to thank everyone for their beautiful posts about Signhild, and I got so sad for all of you who had lost a cherished animal too. This i s one reason I always try to be nice to people, even the evil ones; because I don't know their pains.

I love all animals, but cats have always been my favourite.
Signhild was really my dream cat come through if you only count the looks. I am very particular with looks (Adora - you really thought someone missed that?) and the second I saw her I was in heaven. And she got even more gorgeous when you got to know her personality. She was the best lap warmer ever :)

But I still have Prince Vinyl to cuddle <3 He's no lap cat, but he looooves being cuddled forever and ever.
His mum was a siamese and his dad a Birman. You can't really tell by this picture but he's got very good ear placement. He came second on the one and only CatShow he was in, as the second best domestic cat.

Signhild has been put to sleep

I miss you so much it hurts.

Monday morning 8'th of November at 08.45 Signhild stopped living in this world.

I had the luck to say goodbye to her the whole weekend, and to really cuddle her. Sunday night I sat with her for an hour just talking to, cuddle her and to play with her. She was so happy, and she played go-fetch with me for 20 minutes. She was almost like a kitten re-born. But I could still see in her eyes she wasn't. She looked so tired... She was only 7 years old, and we had only had her for 2½ years.

Monday morning my kids said goodbye by caressing her and kissing her before they left for school/daycare. Signhild was very pleased by the attention, and I think she knew it was the last good bye.

When I got back I gave her smoked salmon and ham. Things she couldn't eat before because of her kidney disease (she could only eat special food and had medication every day). It was so nice seeing her so exited again. I filmed her a bit to be able to see her again. I have already watched that movie over and over...

After some kissing and more cuddling it was time to go to the veterinary station.
Signhild was acting like normal; jumping around being curious, and cuddled the nurse and doctor.
I decided I wanted to hold her the way she liked to be carried around; hanging over my shoulder. So they gave her the shot and I think her heart stopped within 3 beats.
She went so fast I almost wasn't ready. But when are you ready for something like this...? It's good for the animals, they don't have time to be distressed, but for me it was awful. My tears running like the Niagara-falls...
Before I left I made her look like she was just asleep, so I have a very nice last picture of her in my mind. She almost looked like a kitten laying there.

I feel so empty, and I wonder if it will ever stop.
This is why people are so reluctant to love, it hurts like hell to loose the love.

Signhild, I love you so much. Our 2½ years together was not enough - I'm not ready to have lost you.

3 days left for Signhild to live...

On Valentines Day 2008 we lost our lilac tortie pointed siamese Fefferonia Felicia to cancer, she was only 9 years old.

Our other cat, Prince Vinyl, was so sad to have lost his soul mate, so I looked to find some older cat who needed replacement, and so I found lovely Signhild; a 3 times Champion and a breeders cat, but now, as a 5 year old she was retired and was happy to move in with us.

We have only had her for 2½ years, and that is not long enough!!! I love her so much. She's always where I am, and jumping up in my lap as soon as I sit down, she loves to hang over my shoulder as I walk around in the flat and always so happy. And she also can "go-fetch" (like most siamese cats).

Since about a 1½ she has been suffering from small and pale kidneys, it gives the same symptoms at renal failure. She was very close to death just 6 months ago, but although she still had the worst values on the kindneys she pulled through. Even the vetetinary was sure she wouldn't. She's been on a special diet and daily medication since then.

2 weeks ago she got worse so she had to do penicillin for 10 days. She was ok for a few days, but then she was sick again. Yesterday I thought she needed a new blood test, and it showed she was in a very bad state.

She got a death sentence.

The veterinary wanted to put her to sleep then and there. But I asked if she could make the weekend without feeling pain so my husband too can say good bye, otherwise I would let her pass away at once, and my veterinary said it would be okay, and they even were kind enough to give me a private number I could call if she took a turn for the worse.

They gave her water under the skin to make sure she's not dehydrated during the weekend.

Monday morning at 08:30 I will take her to the veterinary station for the last time. I'm so sad. I treasure every second with her and feel so happy I have the weekend to say goodbye, and to spoil her with things she have not been able to eat for a very long time because of her very strict diet.

Signhild I love you. Thank you so much for loving me back. You will be very missed.



I'm so unbelievable sad

My wonderful, perfect, beautiful, 3 times a Champion, seal masked siamese cat took a bloodtest today. It's no good and I just can't stop crying. I just can't bare to tell more right now, but I'm so, so sad...

Last December

This night 4 years ago TeeBee was born

At 01.10 I was getting into labour, and 01.50 he entered our lives <3
I'm fast at giving birth...

Well, the water broke as soon as I got up this morning (4 years ago), and since he had not fixated his head (as they should the last weeks) it's a danger the umbilical cord can be jammed and that's not good, so I had to get to the hospital asap.
I didn't want to give birth the 2'nd of November, I had my sight on the 3'rd since it's my dead grandmothers birthday (and Fairlight is born on my grandfathers birthday) so I tried hard to keep him in ;)

This is me taking the CTG (checking the babys heart-beat)

In the fantastic stylish non-gothic robe they gave me. I look like a BLIMP!

TeeBee is born!

Daddy is proud....and tired

Meeting his sisters for the first time

Going home (3 days later)

Wow, this was just a fantastic day 4 years ago!

We thought he was another girl (statistics says if you have already 2 in one sex, there is an 80% chance to get the same sex again) so you can imagine our surprise and happy shouts from me since I so wanted a boy this time! Got it all in the video :)

He had his umbilical cord around his neck and wasn't breathing when he entered the world. I was supposed to cut it this time - but the accoucheuse just cut it and ran away with him to the emergency room :(

But at least I got to cut it a bit shorter when he got back. It might sound disgusting but it was a proud moment in my life. I have a picture of it, but I will spare you the sight....

Happy Birthday TeeBee Valentin Charles Emil Wimmerstedt!

Make up by me: M.A.C. Fluidline

Todays hot spot:
M.A.C. Fluidline Eye-liner gel, color Blacktrack

This is a water resistant eyeliner.
I use this on my lower eyelid border and on the inside and outside of the eye.
Why I don't use it everywhere? For once, it's very thick so it's hard to work with  and also I don't have the need to have super-water resistant eyeliner everywhere, and also it's a bit costly (approx. $18).

I do it as on this picture. As you can see I also do a bit thicker at the inside of the eye. I paint a bit outside the border, downwards. This is to create a more cat shape to the eye.

End of school :)

Baking, making.

Me and TeeBee baked a tart case today. He's turning 4 years the 3'd of November so we're having a pre-party with our friends and their kids tomorrow. I filled the cake with whipped cream mixed with creme fraiche, a bit of orange zest and powder sugar and some cutted strawberries. It will be sooo good. Not Montignac at all I tell you!

This is TeeBee from February.

Oh, wow, I'm just so much in love with this little boy! He for sure has captivated my heart <3

My scary clown face!

Tonight I've been hosting some Halloween crafts at my daughter Synthias school together with the other class-parents. It was lots of fun! I decided to steal my husbands scary clown look from Halloween 2005. I think I made it just as good! I was even afraid of myself!

The copy

The original

Are we not the most perfect couple you have ever seen?! <3

I forced the kids to make candy-boxes and mummy's as Halloween craft. They made them look so good. Haven't got a picture of it yet - but i do have pictures of my ghost merengues I did.

Chocolate loving people

(I have been teaching a chocolate course on the evenings)
I just got back from my last chocolate course.
Aww, they were just too cute! I'm in total bliss! They said such nice words about me and gave me a flower, and I even got this years mulled whine/glühwein/glögg from two of them (that's something special here in Sweden, it's something we all look foward to; to taste the new flavour of the year. It's a big happening!).
And I who always feel like I'm so confound, not good enough and that people must think I'm so muzzy. I can't belive they missed that?!

I'm always so baffled when people says I have a delightful personality. That makes me always so happy though! I don't necessarily think they are right, but it still makes me pink and fuzzy inside.
I know people with delightful personalitys (and many of them tend to go on my chocolate courses!) and I'm not as sweet as they are - but I do have a happy soul. I always belive in smiling in my heart <3

Look what they gave me! Flowers, mulled whine and samples of tonights chocolate truffles. Thank's <3

A new picture

Here's one more picture from yesterdays upload. Considering this was a "we-have-half-an-hour-left, lets-do-one-more-style-shoot" I think it turned out kind of okay?! I think I made the hair in 4 minutes...

TeeBee's birthday is coming up

I will buy him a Stormtrooper costume. He is SO into StarWars. He's often running around in his Darth Vader costume. One time with his lawn mower. That was the first time I've ever seen Darth doing that! Made me laught like an insane person! Totally cute though...
I'm looking to find this costume to order so I can have it until his party the 6'th of November. I should be able to find it in Sweden, right?

Two new pictures

From this summers photoshoot with Lazy Afternoon. There will be more...

This is butt!

Once again my throat is killing me! I've had this shit on/off for 2-3 weeks now. And I'm not the only one. All people is having this right now.
One winter I was sick, one way or another, for 11 (!) weeks. It ended with penicillin and a sinusitis.
I think I prefer to be down for a week and then done with it rather then having extended pain.
To help me get better I relax my eyes on some inspirational pictures that I must share :)

Can anyone see that I'm inspired by her? Perhaps I'll do an Elvira make up tomorrow..

Modelling Wade Lee today

Today I took some smashing pictures of the 4 hair bows I recieved from The House of Wade Lee!
I had 4 diffrent styles and from what I saw they turned out great. I think he will be pleased!

The photographer was also nice enough to shoot me in a BatBrat Cat Hat, so as soon I get them I'm gonna put the picture up on my etsy.com and sell the 7 I have at home :) They will cost about £44/350 SEK/€38 (and freight). Here's my old picture:

Fun tales of London - The Trip

Chapter 3.
Whii - up early after a bad nights sleep. Darn that ghost!
Two very tired, but very well styled girls, went to the airport in Gothenburg.

I had to be a magician and transform my kronor to pounds. This made me happy!

Happy like a rich bitch!

Those flowers in my hair made me feel like a Barbie Fairytopia Mermaid so as soon as we got to the Generator Hostel in London I had to re-style the hair. I wanted to enter London cool, and not like a mermaid...

Now we were ready to enter Camden Town with our smashing looks ;) A nice beginning on our London trip! 

Package from Wade Lee

I just recieved a big envelope in my mailbox. The package was from mr Wade Lee.
He's been sweet enough to send me some things to review, and OH MY, they are cuuuute. I will do some shoots this weekend with me wearing them as a thank you.
I just have to show you them at once!

http://www.thehouseofwadelee.com/
youtube.com/thehouseofwade lee

Chocolate by me

Today I've been at a birthday party for my sister and my step-mum. I made them both some chocolate truffles to go with their gifts.

Jenny's chocolate (I made the box too).

Berith's chocolate

The both to the left are milk-chocolate with rum covered in dark chocolate or brown sugar, and the both to the right are dark espresso chocolate covered in milk chocolate or cacao.

Me, moping

My husband is working far, faaaaar away in the weekdays (7 hours from home) and I can tell you, this happy goth that I am is turning into a crappy goth! I, who always see the positive in life, is now moping and complayning like a true goth. I don't wanna be a bitter, mumbling goth who feels society failed me. I want my happy goth me back!! Well, I'm not there yet, I'm still a happy bastard! Can I even be bitter and moping? Hope I'll never find that one out :)

Me, moping.

Fun tales of London - The Ghost

Chapter 2.
I finally arrived at my sisters apartment. It's a beautiful flat, but you can feel you don't wanna be there.
I know from before the hole damn building is haunted, and my sister have told me maaaaany scary stories about the evil ghosts in her flat. I can sure sense them!

Before bedtime she told me it happened something 1½ weeks before.
She woke up and there was a man standing between her bed and the sofa I'm about to sleep in. She got sleep paralysis (you are awake, but the body is shut down for sleep). Eventually the man faded away. She couldn't tell if he was evil or not, but she got really scared.

I'm used to lots of ghosts too and also have had sleep paralysis a couple of times so I knew what she was talking about... but I told my ghosts and spirits when I was 22 to stay away because they scared me even though they seemed nice. Since then I haven't met any (well, a warm hand on my shoulder when being at home alone doing my make up or so, but nothing scary).

We went to sleep, me in the sofa. I felt a bit worried about the ghost story and it took me a while to relax and close my eyes. Jenny went to sleep.
As I closed my eyes I saw something inside my eyes. It scared and worried me, but I thought it was because of all the ghost-talk before. I blinked it away and went to sleep.
I can tell you - it was something to worry about. This story continued 3 days later....

So sweet!

I'm so blessed. You just can't believe the super sweet messages I sometimes get (well, I guess you can since I get them from many of you <3).

I just recieved one on Facebook where this wonderful goth girl from Wales told me I helped her to improve her personality just by being me! She even called me remarkable <3
I don't think I deserve these fantastic, wonderful words people say about me, but I am VERY honoured and feel blessed and grateful about it.
I feel so happy to know that something I've done will make someone elses day (or even life) better. It's a real WOW-factor. And I'm so happy when people take their time to tell me so. It means a lot.
I'm a big fan of happyness and being true to your spirit so I'm so happy when it rubs off.

Fun tales of London - The scary man

Chapter 1.
My trip to London started last Tuesday as I jumped on a train at 17:33 to my sister in Gothenburg.
The week before a girl, Elin, disappeared in Gothenburg and was found murdered the day on my arrival.
On the seat across from me a young man, 25-33 something, sat down and acted very strange, nervous. He sat and stared at himself with a smirk the whole trip, and sometimes looked at me. I decided to make it appear like I was supposed to get off on an earlier station then mine. As he sew me getting ready he went completely still then started to rub his fingers. He freaked me out!

I was about to text my husband a description of him (if I was found murdered the next morning) as I noticed he had red and black striped socks. But then I sew it was only on one foot. The other had a purple and white non striped sock. That freaked me out even more since he was far from the hip stylish guys and more of a nerd from out of town with un-hip clothes.
As he noticed me not getting off he seemed calmer, and smirked once again.

I decided to let him step out first so I started to move in one direction, as he immediately started walking that way. Then I changed ways, and he turned around and walked my way.
Out on the platform I started walking very fast with him after me. Then I suddenly stopped to fake I needed to find something in my bag. He slowed down, and I could see him getting anxious when he passed me, looking over his shoulder. I started to walk again, and made a very clear turn to show I was about to enter a store. He was just in front of me, still looking over his shoulder, and picked up on my quick direction change ways and changed ahead of me (you can understand he was wobbling all over in front of me to try to look as he was going the same direction). I walked almost up to the store, then changed again to move out of the station area. As I looked at him to let him know I new he was following me, he didn't get into the store, and just stood there. Of course he came my way again... I'm certain he's some kind of psychopath.
I gave him a good stare to really make him understand he was noticed. He was a real looser!
He finally went some other way.
I was soooo afraid he should jump on the same tram since I was supposed to walk by myself on a dark path where I never been before.
I was happy to find myself still alive as arriving to my sister Jenny.

will continue...

Back from London!

I'm physically back...but my brain is not with me yet...
Inbetween Friday and Saturday I only slept 30 minutes before being up again to 23:00..that's no good.
This is how me and my pretty sister looked at Torture Garden:

I will share more pic's and fun stuff that happened another day when my brain have catched up with me.

Finally on my way home

Leaving London...
How I miss my family! I can't wait to get back to them. I will land in Sweden tonight, but I won't get back home until tomorrow :(
And when I get home *boohoo* my husband won't be there... He work's as an consultant and will work 7 hours away from us, and he leaves before I get back even... It's so sad
But I can still kiss and hug our kids, and hug and kiss them.

Shoot with Bea Sweet

Still in London:
Oh, who have not been inspired by the wonderful make up's done by Bea Sweet and her endless range of make up on magazine covers?
Well, me for one admired her make up for years and was ever so happy when I found out we'd do a shoot together.

I'm reallt curious on how she sees me? What to do with this goth make up covered girl? Wish me luck!

Torture Garden Ball tonight!

Still in London:
If the post office did their work we will be wearing clothes sponsored by Naucler Design latex tonight. This is the dresses she made especially for us to wear. I'm gonna feel like a princess - a hot and saucy princess!

Torture Garden Ball is the event of the evening. It will be so much fun! I'm so looking foward to hang with the beautiful people tonight. I just hope I can go away from the fun in an decent hour because I will get up early for a shoot with the talented make up artist Bea Sweet tomorrow.

Freyagushi shoot today!!

Still in London:
Uhh, bit tired from the evening before, but just knowing we'll do a shoot for Freyagushi today makes me happy as a child on Christmas!
I've tried out a make up at home made from the inspirational pictures I got sent to me, so I probably look something like this right now ;)

Haha, my Kermit in the background is laughing his collar off!

And - today is my sister Jenny's birthday. Make sure to give her a congratulation since she's here in London with me!

Time for a shoot

We are on our way to Stratford to do a shoot for TomMac all wired up in video tape tapes (that sounds strange, but I'm sure it's correct) and high heels. This can be funny!

London calling

Uhh, early morning, but now we just sat down in our seats on the flight to London :)
Hope it's a smooth ride, and that my ears doesn't hurt too much..
We'll land at 11.35, and then we're off to the hostel to dump the bags, then - SHOPPING!! Wihooo!

Goth-enburg tonight

Just jumped on my train to Gothenburg and my sister. Won't arrive until 21:30....in time for bed since we'll have to get up early for our flight to London tomorrow.

Packing for London

I've started packing for the London-trip. Tomorrow at 17.33 I will jump on the train to Gothenburg. Stay the night at my sisters and the next morning (on Wedesday) we'll leave for London. Wihiii!

Freyagushi shoot

Yes, you heard me right! I'm gonna be a Freyagushi model while in London (together with my pretty sister - on her birthday)!
She's done a new collection of clothing and it will be so amazing to model her fantastic clothes (who have not drooled over her wonderful creations?).

Here she is, the talented Pinkindus Freyagushi:

I'm so looking foward to it. Wish me luck!

My reign will continue!!

I've been on a class meeting and I can proudly say I'm still a class-mum (together with two other nice parents)! I enjoy to be a class-mum and be part of trying to make fun for the kids and their parents. Next up is Halloween. Whiiiiiiiii :)
Here's one Christmas craft we made for the tree:

I always try to make the kids do crafts that is pretty enough so us parents can actually have it up. I hate having ugly stuff in my home, so I make them do pretty stuff that I love to show on the best spot. A real challenge! I sound like such a bitch-mum now!

I miss my blonde hair sometimes...

When I find pictures like this I really miss...
1. My pretty protégé
2. My blond hair
3. Being 7 years younger

My family July 2007

I just stumbled across a picture of my whole family from 2007. The kids were so small!!!
Synthia on the ground, I'm carrying Fairlight and my husband <3 is holding TeeBee.
Usually they do not have all black and white clothes, but on trips it's so cute when we all match eachother. This was in Gothenburg. TeeBee looks like a toad and my hair is a complete mess!