This night 4 years ago TeeBee was born

At 01.10 I was getting into labour, and 01.50 he entered our lives <3
I'm fast at giving birth...

Well, the water broke as soon as I got up this morning (4 years ago), and since he had not fixated his head (as they should the last weeks) it's a danger the umbilical cord can be jammed and that's not good, so I had to get to the hospital asap.
I didn't want to give birth the 2'nd of November, I had my sight on the 3'rd since it's my dead grandmothers birthday (and Fairlight is born on my grandfathers birthday) so I tried hard to keep him in ;)

This is me taking the CTG (checking the babys heart-beat)

In the fantastic stylish non-gothic robe they gave me. I look like a BLIMP!

TeeBee is born!

Daddy is proud....and tired

Meeting his sisters for the first time

Going home (3 days later)

Wow, this was just a fantastic day 4 years ago!

We thought he was another girl (statistics says if you have already 2 in one sex, there is an 80% chance to get the same sex again) so you can imagine our surprise and happy shouts from me since I so wanted a boy this time! Got it all in the video :)

He had his umbilical cord around his neck and wasn't breathing when he entered the world. I was supposed to cut it this time - but the accoucheuse just cut it and ran away with him to the emergency room :(

But at least I got to cut it a bit shorter when he got back. It might sound disgusting but it was a proud moment in my life. I have a picture of it, but I will spare you the sight....

Happy Birthday TeeBee Valentin Charles Emil Wimmerstedt!

Make up by me: M.A.C. Fluidline

Todays hot spot:
M.A.C. Fluidline Eye-liner gel, color Blacktrack

This is a water resistant eyeliner.
I use this on my lower eyelid border and on the inside and outside of the eye.
Why I don't use it everywhere? For once, it's very thick so it's hard to work with  and also I don't have the need to have super-water resistant eyeliner everywhere, and also it's a bit costly (approx. $18).

I do it as on this picture. As you can see I also do a bit thicker at the inside of the eye. I paint a bit outside the border, downwards. This is to create a more cat shape to the eye.

End of school :)

Baking, making.

Me and TeeBee baked a tart case today. He's turning 4 years the 3'd of November so we're having a pre-party with our friends and their kids tomorrow. I filled the cake with whipped cream mixed with creme fraiche, a bit of orange zest and powder sugar and some cutted strawberries. It will be sooo good. Not Montignac at all I tell you!

This is TeeBee from February.

Oh, wow, I'm just so much in love with this little boy! He for sure has captivated my heart <3

My scary clown face!

Tonight I've been hosting some Halloween crafts at my daughter Synthias school together with the other class-parents. It was lots of fun! I decided to steal my husbands scary clown look from Halloween 2005. I think I made it just as good! I was even afraid of myself!

The copy

The original

Are we not the most perfect couple you have ever seen?! <3

I forced the kids to make candy-boxes and mummy's as Halloween craft. They made them look so good. Haven't got a picture of it yet - but i do have pictures of my ghost merengues I did.

Chocolate loving people

(I have been teaching a chocolate course on the evenings)
I just got back from my last chocolate course.
Aww, they were just too cute! I'm in total bliss! They said such nice words about me and gave me a flower, and I even got this years mulled whine/glühwein/glögg from two of them (that's something special here in Sweden, it's something we all look foward to; to taste the new flavour of the year. It's a big happening!).
And I who always feel like I'm so confound, not good enough and that people must think I'm so muzzy. I can't belive they missed that?!

I'm always so baffled when people says I have a delightful personality. That makes me always so happy though! I don't necessarily think they are right, but it still makes me pink and fuzzy inside.
I know people with delightful personalitys (and many of them tend to go on my chocolate courses!) and I'm not as sweet as they are - but I do have a happy soul. I always belive in smiling in my heart <3

Look what they gave me! Flowers, mulled whine and samples of tonights chocolate truffles. Thank's <3

A new picture

Here's one more picture from yesterdays upload. Considering this was a "we-have-half-an-hour-left, lets-do-one-more-style-shoot" I think it turned out kind of okay?! I think I made the hair in 4 minutes...

TeeBee's birthday is coming up

I will buy him a Stormtrooper costume. He is SO into StarWars. He's often running around in his Darth Vader costume. One time with his lawn mower. That was the first time I've ever seen Darth doing that! Made me laught like an insane person! Totally cute though...
I'm looking to find this costume to order so I can have it until his party the 6'th of November. I should be able to find it in Sweden, right?

Two new pictures

From this summers photoshoot with Lazy Afternoon. There will be more...

This is butt!

Once again my throat is killing me! I've had this shit on/off for 2-3 weeks now. And I'm not the only one. All people is having this right now.
One winter I was sick, one way or another, for 11 (!) weeks. It ended with penicillin and a sinusitis.
I think I prefer to be down for a week and then done with it rather then having extended pain.
To help me get better I relax my eyes on some inspirational pictures that I must share :)

Can anyone see that I'm inspired by her? Perhaps I'll do an Elvira make up tomorrow..

Modelling Wade Lee today

Today I took some smashing pictures of the 4 hair bows I recieved from The House of Wade Lee!
I had 4 diffrent styles and from what I saw they turned out great. I think he will be pleased!

The photographer was also nice enough to shoot me in a BatBrat Cat Hat, so as soon I get them I'm gonna put the picture up on my etsy.com and sell the 7 I have at home :) They will cost about £44/350 SEK/€38 (and freight). Here's my old picture:

Fun tales of London - The Trip

Chapter 3.
Whii - up early after a bad nights sleep. Darn that ghost!
Two very tired, but very well styled girls, went to the airport in Gothenburg.

I had to be a magician and transform my kronor to pounds. This made me happy!

Happy like a rich bitch!

Those flowers in my hair made me feel like a Barbie Fairytopia Mermaid so as soon as we got to the Generator Hostel in London I had to re-style the hair. I wanted to enter London cool, and not like a mermaid...

Now we were ready to enter Camden Town with our smashing looks ;) A nice beginning on our London trip! 

Package from Wade Lee

I just recieved a big envelope in my mailbox. The package was from mr Wade Lee.
He's been sweet enough to send me some things to review, and OH MY, they are cuuuute. I will do some shoots this weekend with me wearing them as a thank you.
I just have to show you them at once!

http://www.thehouseofwadelee.com/
youtube.com/thehouseofwade lee

Chocolate by me

Today I've been at a birthday party for my sister and my step-mum. I made them both some chocolate truffles to go with their gifts.

Jenny's chocolate (I made the box too).

Berith's chocolate

The both to the left are milk-chocolate with rum covered in dark chocolate or brown sugar, and the both to the right are dark espresso chocolate covered in milk chocolate or cacao.

Me, moping

My husband is working far, faaaaar away in the weekdays (7 hours from home) and I can tell you, this happy goth that I am is turning into a crappy goth! I, who always see the positive in life, is now moping and complayning like a true goth. I don't wanna be a bitter, mumbling goth who feels society failed me. I want my happy goth me back!! Well, I'm not there yet, I'm still a happy bastard! Can I even be bitter and moping? Hope I'll never find that one out :)

Me, moping.

Fun tales of London - The Ghost

Chapter 2.
I finally arrived at my sisters apartment. It's a beautiful flat, but you can feel you don't wanna be there.
I know from before the hole damn building is haunted, and my sister have told me maaaaany scary stories about the evil ghosts in her flat. I can sure sense them!

Before bedtime she told me it happened something 1½ weeks before.
She woke up and there was a man standing between her bed and the sofa I'm about to sleep in. She got sleep paralysis (you are awake, but the body is shut down for sleep). Eventually the man faded away. She couldn't tell if he was evil or not, but she got really scared.

I'm used to lots of ghosts too and also have had sleep paralysis a couple of times so I knew what she was talking about... but I told my ghosts and spirits when I was 22 to stay away because they scared me even though they seemed nice. Since then I haven't met any (well, a warm hand on my shoulder when being at home alone doing my make up or so, but nothing scary).

We went to sleep, me in the sofa. I felt a bit worried about the ghost story and it took me a while to relax and close my eyes. Jenny went to sleep.
As I closed my eyes I saw something inside my eyes. It scared and worried me, but I thought it was because of all the ghost-talk before. I blinked it away and went to sleep.
I can tell you - it was something to worry about. This story continued 3 days later....

So sweet!

I'm so blessed. You just can't believe the super sweet messages I sometimes get (well, I guess you can since I get them from many of you <3).

I just recieved one on Facebook where this wonderful goth girl from Wales told me I helped her to improve her personality just by being me! She even called me remarkable <3
I don't think I deserve these fantastic, wonderful words people say about me, but I am VERY honoured and feel blessed and grateful about it.
I feel so happy to know that something I've done will make someone elses day (or even life) better. It's a real WOW-factor. And I'm so happy when people take their time to tell me so. It means a lot.
I'm a big fan of happyness and being true to your spirit so I'm so happy when it rubs off.

Fun tales of London - The scary man

Chapter 1.
My trip to London started last Tuesday as I jumped on a train at 17:33 to my sister in Gothenburg.
The week before a girl, Elin, disappeared in Gothenburg and was found murdered the day on my arrival.
On the seat across from me a young man, 25-33 something, sat down and acted very strange, nervous. He sat and stared at himself with a smirk the whole trip, and sometimes looked at me. I decided to make it appear like I was supposed to get off on an earlier station then mine. As he sew me getting ready he went completely still then started to rub his fingers. He freaked me out!

I was about to text my husband a description of him (if I was found murdered the next morning) as I noticed he had red and black striped socks. But then I sew it was only on one foot. The other had a purple and white non striped sock. That freaked me out even more since he was far from the hip stylish guys and more of a nerd from out of town with un-hip clothes.
As he noticed me not getting off he seemed calmer, and smirked once again.

I decided to let him step out first so I started to move in one direction, as he immediately started walking that way. Then I changed ways, and he turned around and walked my way.
Out on the platform I started walking very fast with him after me. Then I suddenly stopped to fake I needed to find something in my bag. He slowed down, and I could see him getting anxious when he passed me, looking over his shoulder. I started to walk again, and made a very clear turn to show I was about to enter a store. He was just in front of me, still looking over his shoulder, and picked up on my quick direction change ways and changed ahead of me (you can understand he was wobbling all over in front of me to try to look as he was going the same direction). I walked almost up to the store, then changed again to move out of the station area. As I looked at him to let him know I new he was following me, he didn't get into the store, and just stood there. Of course he came my way again... I'm certain he's some kind of psychopath.
I gave him a good stare to really make him understand he was noticed. He was a real looser!
He finally went some other way.
I was soooo afraid he should jump on the same tram since I was supposed to walk by myself on a dark path where I never been before.
I was happy to find myself still alive as arriving to my sister Jenny.

will continue...

Back from London!

I'm physically back...but my brain is not with me yet...
Inbetween Friday and Saturday I only slept 30 minutes before being up again to 23:00..that's no good.
This is how me and my pretty sister looked at Torture Garden:

I will share more pic's and fun stuff that happened another day when my brain have catched up with me.

Finally on my way home

Leaving London...
How I miss my family! I can't wait to get back to them. I will land in Sweden tonight, but I won't get back home until tomorrow :(
And when I get home *boohoo* my husband won't be there... He work's as an consultant and will work 7 hours away from us, and he leaves before I get back even... It's so sad
But I can still kiss and hug our kids, and hug and kiss them.

Shoot with Bea Sweet

Still in London:
Oh, who have not been inspired by the wonderful make up's done by Bea Sweet and her endless range of make up on magazine covers?
Well, me for one admired her make up for years and was ever so happy when I found out we'd do a shoot together.

I'm reallt curious on how she sees me? What to do with this goth make up covered girl? Wish me luck!

Torture Garden Ball tonight!

Still in London:
If the post office did their work we will be wearing clothes sponsored by Naucler Design latex tonight. This is the dresses she made especially for us to wear. I'm gonna feel like a princess - a hot and saucy princess!

Torture Garden Ball is the event of the evening. It will be so much fun! I'm so looking foward to hang with the beautiful people tonight. I just hope I can go away from the fun in an decent hour because I will get up early for a shoot with the talented make up artist Bea Sweet tomorrow.

Freyagushi shoot today!!

Still in London:
Uhh, bit tired from the evening before, but just knowing we'll do a shoot for Freyagushi today makes me happy as a child on Christmas!
I've tried out a make up at home made from the inspirational pictures I got sent to me, so I probably look something like this right now ;)

Haha, my Kermit in the background is laughing his collar off!

And - today is my sister Jenny's birthday. Make sure to give her a congratulation since she's here in London with me!

Time for a shoot

We are on our way to Stratford to do a shoot for TomMac all wired up in video tape tapes (that sounds strange, but I'm sure it's correct) and high heels. This can be funny!

London calling

Uhh, early morning, but now we just sat down in our seats on the flight to London :)
Hope it's a smooth ride, and that my ears doesn't hurt too much..
We'll land at 11.35, and then we're off to the hostel to dump the bags, then - SHOPPING!! Wihooo!

Goth-enburg tonight

Just jumped on my train to Gothenburg and my sister. Won't arrive until 21:30....in time for bed since we'll have to get up early for our flight to London tomorrow.

Packing for London

I've started packing for the London-trip. Tomorrow at 17.33 I will jump on the train to Gothenburg. Stay the night at my sisters and the next morning (on Wedesday) we'll leave for London. Wihiii!

Freyagushi shoot

Yes, you heard me right! I'm gonna be a Freyagushi model while in London (together with my pretty sister - on her birthday)!
She's done a new collection of clothing and it will be so amazing to model her fantastic clothes (who have not drooled over her wonderful creations?).

Here she is, the talented Pinkindus Freyagushi:

I'm so looking foward to it. Wish me luck!

My reign will continue!!

I've been on a class meeting and I can proudly say I'm still a class-mum (together with two other nice parents)! I enjoy to be a class-mum and be part of trying to make fun for the kids and their parents. Next up is Halloween. Whiiiiiiiii :)
Here's one Christmas craft we made for the tree:

I always try to make the kids do crafts that is pretty enough so us parents can actually have it up. I hate having ugly stuff in my home, so I make them do pretty stuff that I love to show on the best spot. A real challenge! I sound like such a bitch-mum now!

I miss my blonde hair sometimes...

When I find pictures like this I really miss...
1. My pretty protégé
2. My blond hair
3. Being 7 years younger

My family July 2007

I just stumbled across a picture of my whole family from 2007. The kids were so small!!!
Synthia on the ground, I'm carrying Fairlight and my husband <3 is holding TeeBee.
Usually they do not have all black and white clothes, but on trips it's so cute when we all match eachother. This was in Gothenburg. TeeBee looks like a toad and my hair is a complete mess!

The Adorable Heart blouse...

I went to the pattern maker this morning. She already made a pattern and sew a (better) copy of my blouse. It fitted like a second skin! She did a great job!

She also helped me out on what clothes to have on my sample collection. She was so incredible helpful.
Now we have 4 full sets containing both blouse and skirt.
Time to order som fabrics I think.

She also thought I'd make a corset (waspie) for the collection.

I have thought about it before, and people have asked me, but I'm doubtfull because there are so many super-talanted corset designers out there already - how could I ever make a better one...

(Corset: Maya Hansen)

Well, the best thing about my collection is that it's only black on black.

That might be vain, but I will only make things I myself would wear on a daily basis, and I do not wear color 99% of the time.

This sucks!

As happy I was yesterday, as sad/mad I am today.
I just found out my husbands work will send him to work 7 hours away from home.
All of a sudden I will be a "widow" for the week days.

Shit! Being a single mum with 3 kids does not appeal to me.

Swim school, homeworks, playing, dinner, tuck in - all of that will be all my work now...and on top of it all I will try to start my own business with my own clothing. Not a good combo.

Hopefully it's just until Christmas.
But every second apart is one second you can never get back. What about all my hugs and kisses :(

Dear Santa,
all I want for Christmas....

First meeting with the pattern maker

Whiii - I'm so happy right now! My lovely pattern maker was here today and everything feels so fantastic! She will give my pattern for the Adorable Heart Blouse a try to see if she nails it. Of course she will! I am so looking foward to work with her.

Unfortunally the production of the blouse will be delayed (not because of her) - I thought everything was done in a jiffy, but to find the exclusive fabrics I need is still a dilemma. But I have faith that I'll sort that out before the week is done!

Kind of the fabrics seen here:

(Betsey Johnson stripe dress)

Capsized brain

The London trip the 29'th of September-4'th of October is making me flip!
All of a sudden me and my sweet sister have 3 shoots booked (all super-fun and with only talented people)...but when will we be able to shop?! But screw shopping! You will totally understand when I will tell you who we will work with later... I'm being secretive now ;)

We are also planning on attending the Torture Garden Ball the 2'nd of October. For this event, me and my sister are being sponsored with clothes from swedens finest in Latex - Naucler Design. This is of course very exiting for us! We will be "twins" so we are now figureing out how to wear our hair and do our make up in a matching way.

I want a black ass

Just been out shopping, and this is what I got at Lindex. Very nice prices too. About 7-9$. The hearts feels a bit too colorful to me, but I just couldn't leave them. I love hearts <3

BUT - I have just one question - the black and white striped ones - why, oh, why, are they white on the ass?
What girl have ever wanted to see her ass look even bigger???
It's just stupid! I want a black ass ;)

Let's throw in a full picture too

Picture taken by Lazyafternoon, edit by me. This is a bad edit, I just had to try out something. But at least you will get a glimpse of how we looked :)

Lottes video from M'era Luna :)

Here is Lottes video from this years M'era Luna! My husband is just too cute when he's pulling his socks!

I'm in my Zwart Chateau

At Zwart Chateau (the name of my sewing area) trying out different types of sleeves. On this new one I can see the puff must be shorter, the sleeve slightly wider and the cuffs are not the way they are supposed to be. So...back to the cutting table... I sometimes feel like the mices of Cinderella...

And YES! It is always a good thing to have a name for your working area. Andy Warhol had "The Factory", and I have "Zwart Chateau"! It suites me fine since I often wear a princess crown <3

Behind the scenes shoot

Me lacing in my sister in her pretty corset from last Friday. It's hard work - it's a mans job!

My black-and-white corset is so uncomfortable...I have to buy me some new.

First picture from last weeks shoot

Dare I put up the first picture sneak-peak from last weeks photoshoot with Olof O (Lazyafternoon)?

This is from a tiny tiny test picture I got - NOT the full edited shoot.

Picture by Lazyafternoon and edit by me (I'm to the right).

Photosession in Gothenburg

Last week I had a meeting with the distributers and since I was in the area I went to Gothenburg for a photo session with my pretty sister - our first together ever! But not last I hope!

I had so much fun. Here's a sneak-peak from my camera:

Meeting up with my sister in town

Just before the first shoot

Me, on the train home

Fly to London

If everything goes by plan I might land in London with my sweet sister in late September to early October. Wouldn't that be a blast!!!