Right now

Me and my cute sister on my balcony right now :) Ha ha, we look like tourists in Turkey or something!!

Ihhh - tomorrow is when we'll be on stage with our band Asperger Synthdrome playing for the first time. We'll be at the Vince Festival, Karlskrona, Sweden. But, of cause, I will put it up on youtube later :)

Vince Festival

I have absoulutely NO idea how to do my make up on stage tomorrow!? Perhaps my sister have some great idea?
I feel like I wanna look kind of NOT so much things in the face, no swirls or spiderweb, just "ordinary" goth make up. But later, after our gig, I want to "Adora" me. That might sound strange cause most people will most certanly have an extended version of themselves on stage, but I want to do it reversed for some strange reason. Maybe my sister can whip it out of me.

Vince Festival

I'm so happy about a "secret" I'm gonna announce on stage on Saturday!

And then I'm totally stressed out about my own performance. We only sing 5 songs, but I have an extreme short memory (for real, it's a BIG problem for me since I never remember people or names. I'm always so scared I'll offend someone), so it's awful for me to remember the texts. I think I have to Scotch some notes on the floor.

Disgusting - be aware!

Yesterday our daughter Fairlight did a SUPER-PUKE! My husband was away so I had to take care of it! Ick!

She puked all evening, poor thing, but the rest ended up in a bowl. The first one landed on her, the sofa and the floor, about 50 centimeters in diameter. I almost died mopping it up!

And then I got panic! What if I get sick!!! I'm having a festival on Saturday, I can't be sick now! Well, if I get sick today that will probably be okay, and then I will also look extra thin on stage ;) You see, I always think positive..

Men

Yesterday I think I got a dab on the head!!!

You know how sometimes you're in a situation where you really can't figure out what's going on, but later it's something about it that disturbes you about the situation? That happened to me yesterday.

The thing with these things it that the signals are so subtle you can't even tell that person he/she is far out...because then you're a fucking whine who took it the wrong way...
And I must say I was so surprised this person felt so intimidated by me, that I could not defend myself!
But if I feel I got a dab on the head, I got it! It's in the eye of the receiver.

And, no, it was NOT my husband..

The Swedish electro scene

One thing: I really dislike people who think you can live on old qualifications! "-I used to be cool too, and had black nails and make up." Ok, so??? Do it now then and I'll respect it. I can understand people who doesn't do it everyday because of work, but what about clubnights?
The electro scene in Sweden is dying - and I can understand why.
Who want's to be a part of something where most active are older (like me), fat and stuck up to believe they are better then someone new to the electro scene just because they happened to be teens in the 80's?

I became part of the electro subculture because of its fashion, its amazing haircuts and the make up as well as the music. If Dave Gahan of Depeche Mode had looked like this sailorboy I would never had payed any attention. Kids needs people to look up to, to romanticise about, to be their rolemodels. I for sure, can't feel resembles to "ordinary" looking people. Dave sat my heart on fire, and by 1981 he had sweet make up and a nosepiercing.

To stop the Swedish electro scene from going straight to the grave we need to show the younger public we still are a part of this subculture. For GOD's sake - use the kohl kajal, not just talk about how cool you used to be when you used it. Being old is NOT about being stuck up and yawn. Where did the happiness and the creativity go? THAT my friends is why the Swedish electro scene is dying.... (Adora in a mood)

EUROVISION 2010 WINNER - GERMANY - Lena "Satellite"

Tonight I'm really happy for Germany's Lena who won Eurovision Song Contest. She was one of my fav's! Congratulation GERMANYYYY!!! My other fav's was Turkey and Ukraine.

I'm making pattern and cutting silk fabric :)

Stumbled over this picture - and, ahhhh, how I miss my blue hair. It looked so gorgeous in the cityscape.

And todays best make up tip is: if you wake up with a red eye - use red make up to make it less obvious. Everyone will just look at that red make up and be horrified. You can also make it look like you cry blood.

My band: Asperger Synthdrome

New youtube video

This is not the eyebrow video - it will be out in a few days though :)

I got accapted to the textile school i wanted to go to :)
It will be so much fun. I just can't wait doing my favorite things all day long.

What's my style (if any)?

I have a dilemma!
Sometimes I get asked what's my style. In my head I think "Easy, I'm a "synthare" (swedish for electro-oriented subculture)."
But outside of Sweden there is no such word as "Synthare". So I'm guessing electro-goth for the music.
But how to describe my looks?
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Based on my videos for example - what would one call my style.
Me, myself, think the style is swedish gothic lolita with some elements from military and new romantic style...with a tad of visual kei???? But that takes VERY long time saying...
How would you describe my style? I'm lost!?

Vince Festival

Today I got the posters for the Vince Festival, so now they are out where people can see them :)

I'm very proud of myself making them so pretty!

The tickets are out as well - finally! At http://www.nortic.se/

Tonight I'll have a wet dream about this dotted puff sleeve by Freyagushi.

First song by Asperger Synthdrome

Yesterday while the kids watched children's programme I went into the bedroom and sung one of the songs we'll perform (Asperger Synthdrome = me and sister) at the Vince Festival. I sing like crap! But the music my friend did is really catchy and makes my feet wanna dance. It could be a bit harder though. Let's see how next song ends up! Here it is!!!

Vernissage

The vernissage was a total hit! We got on the news, 2 newspapers, and additionally one today! And all gave us fantastic reviews!
See the clip here.

Exhibit

Mercy me! The exhibit is SO much work.
I do it together with my best friend. She is educated in stuff like this; setting an exhibit to make it have a nice flow. I feel so incapable in this area...

I do most of the print-outs and computer-related things, and she do the more hands on things. It feels like I do nothing, since all I do is just sit there in front of the stupid computer.
Of cause that is ecual work, but it feels so small in comparison..

Friday is opened to the media, and Saturday at 13:00 is vernissage. All of you in my neighbourhood are most welcome - it's an open vernissage!

Lump

I noticed a lump on my throat, behind my left ear a week ago.

Today I noticed another - on my neck.

And also I got some really strange stomach pain yesterday.

I sure hope it's just stress related because of the exhibit.

I don't have the time to see a doctor yet.

As seen we started setting the exhibit today and my friend thought I should be in one showcase....
(Sorry about my blue muffin socks - we had washday today)

Exhibit

This morning I thought I had it figured out - how to program the sheets for the exhibit.
But then I forgot how I did it - WTF?! Rest of the day was spent to try to remember. But, nah...

I felt so stupid!
After like 67 trial and errors I found a working way - but there's no way in hell this is the "fight" way - it's to complicated.

The papersheets are to be 90 x 150 centimeters, 200 dpi.
The area of the text is 50 x 142 centimeters
The text is Arial, size 47.
The text must be tabbed, so I made it in Words, even though I can't get the sheet as big as I need. That didn't work, so I pasted it in Power Point instead, and tried as good as I could to tab it.. Then saved it to a pdf, opened it in Photoshop and copied. That works. Takes some time, but can be done.
But this can't be the easiest way???
If there is any computer wiz out there - HELP ME!!!

My computer will not co-operate while doing the texts to the exhibit. My brain will surely melt if I don't figure this out. Sometimes I hate computers!

This weekend we'll start setting the exhibit - and not all the art-artists have pulled through so I'm starting to panic! And I'm falling behind as well... I'm gonna age 10 years this upcoming week. Send me some strength, please!